I’ve known since I was a kid that I’m depressed. I even have infant photos of me, where I look like I just hate life. Other baby photos the baby is smiling, and interested in everything. Whereas I look like even though I’m too young to even have thoughts, I’m still giving off body language of “leave me alone”.
But when I started asking everyone I knew if they too were depressed, I haven’t gotten one single person to say that they’re happy. Everyone has said they’re depressed. So now I wonder if it’s a regional thing, or if everyone everywhere is depressed.
Depression has gotten massively common because people tend to self-diagnose themselves. They self-diagnose themselves because therapy costs are high.
I’ve gone through therapy to say that I absolutely do have it. But then again, I knew for certain that I already had it prior to seeing at least two therapists. Because I’ve had a shitty childhood, I’ve gotten bullied an awful lot through childhood, I had unsupporting and unloving parents. A lot of my ambitions and dreams weren’t realized because I didn’t have the necessary tools to go and achieve them. My school career was so embarrassing that I elected not to go to college because I had nothing to show for it.
And while I can say that I’ve had decent friends and some good relationships. I keep finding myself fighting with whether or not anyone actually cares of me and simply just isn’t tolerating me so they can take advantage of my generosity.
So I have plenty to be depressed about.