Just a couple days ago, thinking about my cat that I had to put down ~6 months ago. He was sick and in pain but I’m still sad about it.

I don’t think you need to push yourself to cry. Everyone processes their emotions differently. For a long time I also didn’t cry much/at all. I was very guarded about my emotions. Between getting older and my wife, whom I can be completely open with, I have gotten more emotional as I have gotten older.

If you are willing to work, many of the trades are hiring and having a hard time getting apprentices/helpers. If you can pass a basic algebra test, you can make it as an electrician.

The company I work for starts wages at $12+/hour with lots of overtime opportunities (including mandatory) and planned raises each year of your apprenticeship. I also know of a carpenter shop hiring helpers at $16+ because they can’t get help.

Please don’t feel like you have no path forward. You just have to look outside your comfort zone a little.

Thats really on whoever started saving them originally. Anything being saved like that should have a note attached stating why it is saved. I have some parts that need to be sent for repair and each of them has a note stating what is wrong, when it broke, and to contact me with questions.