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I have had a similar expierence with this, my mother would mostly ignore my input if I didn’t or did want to do something or if I knew she was wrong she would still ignore me and then find out she was wrong and rarely acknowledge I was right.

I never thought about this affecting me until I was watching an interview with a psychologist about 2 years ago and I really resonated with part of it but it never left my mind. Recently I rewatched it and part a different part of it resonated deeper when the guy talked about disagreeing with his parents even though they thought they were right and they listened… I was unsure of what exactly that part was resonating with so I listened to it again. I decided to mix up drink shake mixture but I couldn’t bring myself to do it for some reason I was just locked up about making the drink for like 10 min even though I know I wanted to make the drink. While trying to get myself to do it.

I noticed that there were internal voices that sounded different one was saying

do I want to go thought the effort to clean the shaker though

The other one though was saying

do you even want the drink

AND THEN IT HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK–THE 2ND WAS MY MOTHERS VOICE

Then I was hit with and started processing all the anger, sadness, and anxiety that I felt and didn’t realize I had pent up because of her ignoring me and brushing me off.

Its a tough thing to process and work through, I still am, but I feel better as a person now and more in control of my actions after the realization.

If I had to recommend anything to help, I would say let yourself feel those feelings you were repressing let them out in safe manners like writing down how you feel about stuff or hell I just let myself cry for like an hour after the dam burst it made me feel a lot better. Of course a therapist could help you too but the above two can help otherwise.

Also HealthyGamerGG is a really good YouTube channel with a lot of resources about mental health, it’s where the interview I was watching happened.

I wish you the best on your journey

I turned down my graphics settings so part 2 would be easier to interpret lol

My mimic tear got his one braincell fixed, let’s goo!

They also maintain file hosting for saves, game versions and a lot of useful apis for games https://partner.steamgames.com/doc/features

Love to refactor, the more I watch the Mesa graphics drivers and the employees valve hired that work on it the more I believe it

My DMs have rolled in the open, I kind of like it that way keeps the intensity in the game and combat, but they are nice enough to not attack us while we are downed.

Very eloquent way of phrasing it

Personally i prefer the $ sudo because honestly i don’t always notice the symbol at the beginning but sudo is really easy to keep track of whats root and what isn’t