When she shuts you down so hard that you reconsider your worth
I hate that evolutionary part of me that cares about having sex/a mate so much that I actually allow myself to become depressed based on the goddamn preferences of one person.
For years the only happiness I’ve found has been by removing myself from the market entirely and just writing off the notion of being with someone, a “with no hope/expectations there is no letdown” kind of thing.
I was carrying on just fine like this until I got a beautiful new coworker a few months ago who laughs at even my worst jokes like it’s going out of style. Alas though I’m sure she likes me I know I’m too old for her so here I am just unusually unhappy in my solitude for the first time in years. Ugh, is it time to get on tinder? I fucking hate the whole enterprise of dating.
How “too old” are we talking here
I’m 84 and she’s 16
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Idk if dating is inherently bad, but the soulcrushing drive for profit that has consumed modern dating has defintely made it horrible.
Alas though I’m sure she likes me I know I’m too old for her so here I am just unusually unhappy in my solitude for the first time in years.
Just ask her if she knows of any single women your age she can set you up with. If she really likes you, she’ll tell them what a great person you are. Or maybe she can give you tips about where to meet someone, how to ask someone out, etc.
Don’t despair for having a potentially good friendship, those can be just as valuable as physical relationships.
I hate that evolutionary part of me that cares about having sex/a mate so much that I actually allow myself to become depressed based on the goddamn preferences of one person.
Hate to break it to you, but you framing this as in inherent part of yourself does not really help in dealing with it. It is something you can absolutely work on and for the sake of your mental health I hope you will be able to do that.
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Why is this MGTOW post getting upvoted?
Because this isn’t someone who hates women. This is someone who simply gave up looking for a partner from frustration or depression. Now, they are deciding to change and passively asking for advice. You know, positive personal growth.
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Well, don’t leave us hanging, were there further entries?
It’s a fictional diary entry, from The Prestige. The next entry is 2 months later, when he’s fallen in love with a different woman.
From the movie The prestige? Like a screen grab?
Probably the novel on which the movie was based.
Oh I didn’t know that was based on a novel, thanks! But that entry must be meant to be hilarious, was the novel comedic?
The novel is made extra strange by a modern day framing story starting the last living ancestors of the two magicians. I read it 20+ years ago and remembered it as a strange book. The movie was excellent and made the whole story make much more sense overall.
I haven’t actually read the novel version, just seen the movie enough times to know this wasn’t in it and that there was a novel
Thank you for the closure.
